Last night my husband and I went out. It took me almost two hours to fully do my hair, with it being so long it’s quite the process and it needs a ton of hair products to get right. My husband actually walked into our bathroom while I was getting ready and said “Woah, it smells like the 80’s in here!” I worked all day Saturday on clearing out my closet and getting rid of all the clothes that were too big. You’d be amazed that a year after having a baby I still had my maternity stuff hanging up!!
After realizing that none of my current stuff fit I tried on a bunch of stuff I had bought pre Mia’s pregnancy and was shocked that it fit and actually looked good. I found this white jacket which I had found and loved but never quite fit right, and it fit perfectly! Then I threw on a new pair of wedges and did met my husband downstairs.
He took one look at me and said – you look like a different person.
I decided to go take a peak in the mirror before leaving the house and my husband and I headed downtown for dinner and to see Bill Maher’s stand up show. As we parked and started heading towards the restaurant we walked past some seemingly nice young ladies. I could see them staring me up and down as we walked past. Not in a bad way or anything just looking at us. As we went on through the night people continued to look at us everywhere we went.
Having been the girl who has been overweight for years I’m not used to people looking at me. Usually I’m the mom with her long hair pulled back who’s busy with my three kiddos and hiding out in the back of the room. I kept asking my husband “what is everyone staring at?” and as he assured me there wasn’t a large booger on the forehead and I started realizing – I guess I just don’t see what others see. I still feel like the drab mom who almost never dresses up but to be honest I don’t want to her anymore. I made the choice to say goodbye to her long ago and never look back. I realize now more than ever how I just want to be happy. I guess if being happy and being beautiful makes people stare then so be it. I must admit my husband and I make a great couple!
I’m living in the best years of my life and I’m going to enjoy it!