For months now I’ve been staring at my running shoes. They’ve been taunting me, I can almost hear them beating the pavement as the tread wears. This pregnancy was not easy for me, first I was hit with round ligament pain which made running and even walking any long distance impossible. My dreams of running and staying very active during pregnancy totally smashed. I put my running shoes away in my closet wishing I could put them on and hit the pavement.
I like running. The music it moves me. The beating of my legs. The rush I get and how good I feel. I never thought of myself as a runner but I found myself craving it. Needing it.
I got gestational diabetes this pregnancy which was probably the best thing to happen to me. I gained a total of 20 pounds and kept myself on a strict diet. I was never on any medication or insulin, thank goodness but got a real dose of reality. I don’t want diabetes, ever. It’s really hard on your body, let alone constantly worrying about everything that you eat. A learned some great lessons in nutrition and I can take those lessons with me to create a healthier and happier me.
I’ll admit since having the baby I have enjoyed cake, pie, ice cream, and just about every other sweet thing I could not have for the past 9 months. I’m ready to go back to my strict diet and get back in a regular exercise routine. It’s going to break my heart that I can’t run 4 miles. I don’t even know if I’ll be able to run a full mile but I’m going to put on my running shoes and put one foot in front of the other. I’m going to beat the pavement with every beat of the music. I’m going to let it rush over me and find myself again.
I’m willing to put the work in to get back to being healthy. Even healthier than I was before pregnancy. I can do this. I will do this.Our family took a long hike today, it felt good to walk and not be in pain. I kept telling my husband how shocked I was and how happy I was that I could walk again, normally. It felt so good to get my legs moving. I can do this! I will do this!
I have 12 pounds to go until my pre-pregnancy weight. I’d like to lose 30 pounds total.One day I’ll tell you all exactly how much I weigh, for now here’s my picture.
2 weeks post-partum