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16 Years Ago

My life changed instantly 16 years ago when my father passed away. Every year on this day I grieve his lost but I still grieve for him every day. I look in the mirror and see his footprint left on this earth. I hear his voice within my brothers. I see his eyes and smile, and I know that he’s still with me. Losing him may have changed me but I know he’s not forever lost, the man who he was lives on within his family. His Grandchildren will never meet him but they’ll love him without ever knowing him.

Every year I reflect upon my loss and my heart reverts back to the 10 year old child I was. This year is especially hard because I lost my mother in law this summer. I hope their souls meet somehow and gab all about me. I miss them both so very much so days like today are just hard. That’s the thing about unexpected deaths is that they never get easier because you never got to say goodbye.

To my father, today 16 years ago you passed away. I never got to say goodbye and  I just want to say that I love you so very much. Brooklin has your eyes and your smile. Kaila has your kind heart.


  1. courtney on October 7, 2011 at 6:24 am

    awww what a beautiful posting..

  2. Amanda on October 5, 2011 at 7:24 pm

    love u sister

  3. Michelle Hayden on October 2, 2011 at 1:47 pm

    Beautiful tribute…it brought tears to my eyes. xxoo

  4. Naomi on October 2, 2011 at 12:16 pm

    Isn’t it crazy to see loved ones you have lost in your kids? Roo reminds me a lot of my grandmother. I wish they could have known each other more.

  5. Jennifer Rogers on October 2, 2011 at 3:50 am

    Love you bella……………………….

  6. Tammy on October 1, 2011 at 10:19 pm

    Sending you a big hug on an extremely hard day!

  7. Brenna @ Almost All The Truth on October 1, 2011 at 9:38 pm

    What a beautifully written tribute to your father. It is never easy losing a loved one, but I love that you are able to see him in your family and hopefully can find some peace in that.

  8. teresa on October 1, 2011 at 9:21 pm

    Very well spoken… I lost my mom 11 years ago suddenly & you have just put into words what I am always thinking. Praying for peace and strength for you today & every day!